Quickly!

Here's the link to my new fic "Over."

All the usual junk applies. If you don't like slash, don't read. If you don't like Real People fic, don't read. (And so on.) It's mature fic (as Kev always called it), but there's nothing objectionable there. (Yet? I might make it a series. LOL.)

Anyway, it seemed like a good way to deal with Kevin Richardson's decision to leave the Backstreet Boys!

I Need You Tonight

Ohhh, yeah

Open up your heart to me
And say what's on your mind, oh yes
I know that we have been through so much pain
But I still need you in my life this time

Chorus:
And I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
I really need you tonight

I figured out what to say to you (Mmmm)
Sometimes the words they
They come out so wrong, oh yes they do
And I know it's time that you will understand
That what we have is so right this time

Chorus:
And I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right

Bridge:
All those endless times
We tried to make it, last forever more
And baby I know

I need you (oh, oh, yeah)
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
Really need you (ohh)

Chorus:
I need you tonight (I need you, oh I need you baby)
I need you right now (it's gotta be this, it's gotta be this)
I know deep within my heart (no it doesn't matter)
No, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or it's right
All I know is baby
I really need you tonight

Well, as everyone knows by now, the BAD news is that Kevin Richardson is leaving BSB. That. Sucks.

I don't know why, but I never ever expected that Kevin would be the first to leave. Or maybe I just figured none of the guys would ever leave. I mean, there are tons of rock groups that are still rolling along!

Anyway, I feel sorry for all of us who are Backstreet Boys fans--but especially for those who were really wrapped up in Kevin-specific fanfic and fandoms. Shit.

(So sorry, Becky beckyo! This so sucks for you, I know...)

Hey! I have no plan to be big about this. I'm disgusted and disappointed and feel pissed off. So there.

But in the Good News category, I've at least been inspired to write a Nick Carter angst fic that has him dealing with this (horrible) news! And I might even turn the ficlet into a series, who knows? (I'll share the link after my dandy beta has finished looking it over--and I've made the necessary corrections. LOL.)

(Hey! Maybe I'll even finish one or two (or more) of my zillions of unfinished series! Don't laugh--it could happen!)

More good news includes the fact that April april_diamond and I finally managed to 'activate' her "April's Diamonds" website. (Maybe activate isn't a good way to describe it, but I can't think of anything else right now.)

Way cool, huh?

She used to have this up as a free site in the past. (The distant past, I might add. And as she reminded me, she had it up twice--at two different places! Yikes!)

Some of you might remember it, because at that time she had more of her stuff up--including some pretty awesome brushes she made for PSP.

She needs to find those files so we can get all the stuff back up again! But we decided it was okay to go ahead and put up her index page, even if things aren't 100% ready. Maybe we can judge how soon we need to add the other stuff, based on the site tagboard--or the emails she gets. (Or just based on site hits.)

Anyway, I'm happy for her--as I know she put some serious time into the various pages back when she was really into having her own graphics site. But I'd like to see her do those tutorials for Paint Shop Pro 9. (And do you use PSPX, honey, or not?) Then she could also share them at Kev's communities, here at LJ--not just at the website.

So, she and I are also working on this cyber relationship project here at LJ. We started talking it over a ton around a week ago, then we just decided to give it a try and see what happened. LOL.

Maybe if we both get active here at LJ we'll even get paid accounts again. It could be fun!

It's late and we've got church in the morning, so I'd better jet.

I did the LJ Friends Icons Meme. (It shows the userpics/icons of all my friends--plus links to each person/community. Rock on!)

( Pictures (Icons) of my LJ Friends )


Try out this Meme

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(Yes, I modified the code to display the icons up and down. I hate scrolling right and figured others must, too. LOL.)

Anyway, that's kind of cool, huh? LOL.

(By the way, you guys know what bears and cubs are, right?)

Well, it hurt a little to do it, but I finally removed the following people from my LJ Friends:
1. charliesangel96
2. debrajoy
3. hermine
4. joeybearsmommy
5. kimothy
6. nosunshyne

In the case of 1, 2 and 6, you can see those journals were all deleted. (I'll post my feelings later regarding people who delete their LJs.) Obviously I miss Deb, as well as Charlie and Carol. But what can I do? When people no longer want to associate with you, it's time to let go and move on. (Duh, Nik! I mean, how long ago did Deb delete her journal, after all! And here I am, still keeping her crossed out LJ among my friends. Grow up already. LOL.)

In the case of 3 and 5, I was removed by both people, so I just removed in return. (Tit for tat? Or whatev.)

In the case of 4, Deb apparently unfriended everybody and made the entire journal 'friends only.' At least she didn't delete it! (This makes more sense to me than deleting the journal.) Anyway, no point in keeping it as a friend if I can't read anything, right?

So I've now finished the major clean-up of my LJ Friends. The only journals I've got now that haven't friended me back are fic journals (which don't friend), LJ-related journals or celeb journals (that only friend other celeb journals).

Most of my LJ friends are M.I.A. (missing in action) now, it appears. So if I end up getting active here again, I'll need to get in and get some more friends. We'll see how it goes!

In the meantime, I really want to catch up with everybody! Exciting idea.

I've missed my online friends a ton.

Back again. LOL.

No, I don't know for how long. But I plan to at least try and update this once a week. What the heck, I should be able to manage that!

I've wanted to do this for a zillion years, it seems like. Well, for ages, anyway. But RL keeps me really busy now. Married life might not be crazy for some people, but it's been nuts for me! LOLOL.

If I do keep this up, I'll probably go paid again. If not, I'll just stay with a free journal. I'm a little freaked by so few icons. But I guess we get six now, which is double what it was.

To those of you who are still around and active, I'm happy to see you again! (Yeah, I do miss the old crowd, even all these years later. But I'm really happy with my current life, so there's no point in dwelling on it.)

Better run around and get back in the swing.

ADDITIONAL LINKS

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Okay, so I started to post here on the first of the month. Nice job, Nik! LOL. Nah, I didn't quite finish it. But there were some extenuating circumstances, after all! I wrote it once and then lost the damned thing. So whatta ya expect? ROFL.

Anyway, that entry is below.

Meanwhile, I haven't done much to add to the webby anyway since then...

So check it out and let me know what you guys think, okay? Cool.

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November 1, 2004

So basically I started a huge post at around 3:30 a.m. last night early this morning--and then I lost it! Yikes!!!

Sometimes I really hate LJ. Especially when I've written something for ages and it gets eaten. Yikes.

I'm going to try and reconstruct what I was saying, but I don't know if I'll remember all of it... LOL.

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I've been spending a bunch of time (when I can find it) working on my webby. The paid version, that is--not the free one. In fact, I don't really even remember where the heck the free one is! LOL. It might be a GeoCities site, but I've forgotten. (And seeing as I never did do a damn thing with it, it's kind of like 'whatev.' LOL.)

As for my real webby, it's finally ready to be unveiled to my friends! Here's the addy: nk-seashore.com

Okay, personally I'm really happy with how it turned out!

Yeah, yeah, 'humble' me, as always. Whatev. I put some time and work into it and am not gonna act like it wasn't hard for me to reason it out, cuz it was! At one point I had it pretty messed up, in the early 'lay out' stages.

Here's the coooool part! (Hope you're reading this Kev. If not, I'll have to email you and have you read!!!) I didn't use a software to do it. I did it by writing out the code, which was pretty interesting. I'd never really done that before. (I think I used like Netscape Composer when I was doing the free webby, but I'm not sure. I can't recall right now.)

No, (Kev) I haven't tried to see it the pages are valid code or any of that junk. First of all, I haven't had time to do that! LOL. My focus has been to get everything working, first! (Actually, that's partly a lie. I validate the HTML and CSS for just the index/Home page. It's cool that it validates just great! LOL.)

So, I've got my fic up. (Most of it, anyway.) Including my latest Alexander the Great one-of-one and my current LotR vampire fic (that FJ talked me into). Yeah, I'm still in touch with FJ fatjoey. In fact, he even betaed for me! Cool, huh? (Thanks, FJ, if you're reading this!)

I've used good old Blogger to set up an updates/news page--and to have a 'rants' page. (Which is basically a place for me to say whatev is on my mind. And as you guys know, I love to go on and on about that junk! ROFL.)

Then I added Freefind.com (a free search engine). It was fascinating to set it up to 'match' my site. And to set up 'excludes' (which just means telling it what not to search! LOL.

For that matter, it was interesting setting up 'templates' (code templates, as opposed to fic templates) for my two blogger pages. I just wanted everything to basically match the overall design. It turned out pretty nice, I think. (Yeah, yeah. My ego is waaaay out there. Like you didn't know that already? LMAO.)

If you want me to link your webby--and you're willing to link me back--just let me know! I'm probably gonna add a totally separate page for any additional links--beyond what I've currently got. I was kinda stupid and didn't realize I might want more than are there right now... (Typical.)

Here's the crappy part of the site! Right now if I change my navigation, then I have to edit every single page of the site. Yikes. Yeah, that sucks big time. I've already changed the navigation a couple of times, so I know it can be a bear to do it...

So, Evamaria shirasade, yesterday when I went to 'Slashy BSB Goodness,' I discovered my link for it was wrong! And that's after I've linked it on every page of my site. ROFL. (Yeah, like I said above, the navigation requires rewriting pages...) So I'm thinking I'll leave it. It's not like people can't follow the link and find it... (You'll see I've linked you twice. That's because I had no clue which site you'd want linked more or whatev. So I figured, 'what the heck' and did both. LOL.) Are you cool with that?

Okay, so obviously I'd love to have my friends with webbys (webbies?) link me. I promise to link you back, of course! Grab one of my coooool little banners (seriously, they're nice and small) and add me up--okay?

Well, that's it for now.

``Czar Nikky (Nik)

Yeah, we've all known 'em.

The list is probably long for some and shorter for others. Unfortunately, it's probably longer if you're more active online and in a number of different arenas...

Today's rant isn't about me or about April (thankfully). But it is about a really dear friend of mine--someone who shouldn't have to put up with a bunch of crap from thoughtless people who don't give a damn who they hurt.

I have to agree with my Mom on this one. She says a lot of it has to do with younger people who dislike interacting with people older than they are. I think that's true. But what's the problem?

Well, Mom says it's tied up in younger people automatically making assumptions about older people--and that's clearly true.

She also says it has to do with older people being identified in positions of authority and that also rings true to me.

I've personally never had any issues with boundaries based on age. I mean, people are people at every age! I've never thought it made sense to run somebody down based on age--any more than it makes sense to run somebody down based on race, creed, and so on...

But maybe I'm just lucky enough to have been around a lot of people who are older than I am--but who just rock big time! (Starting with both of my parents, by the way.)

It's interesting to me that the people I've personally had my major run-ins with online certainly aren't those who are over 40! Heck, the biggest problems I've faced were with people in their teens and 20's. (Let's talk about mid-twenties sometime, shall we? LOL. Seeing as I fall in that age group now, I hope I'm never as self-centered as so many other people I know between 20 and 30! Yikes. Big time yikes.)

The person who has been facing a bunch of shit online is somebody who is warm, funny, thoughtful, intelligent, logical... I could go on and on. Of course, she's quite logical--which is probably another reason some people can't deal with her. So many people work entirely from their (wrapped and selfish) emotions--and are unable to be reasonable or deal with those who are logic-based...

Hey, she's gone through the year (plus) from hell--and doesn't deserve this online crap! It makes me see red.

Me? I'll play online (or off) anytime with her. She's twice my age, but you'd never know it to meet her! She's as much fun--or more--than tons of my contemporaries. (Many of them are too busy trying to be 'important' or 'adult' or whatev to be fun! And she's already got her RL together as far as career and so on, so...)

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If you happen to be reading this (which is doubtful), I hope you know how much I respect, admire and--yeah--love you. You're one of a kind, lady!

I don't curse much these days (LMAO), but I just have to say, "Fuck 'em" about the people who are being such creeps to you. Ignore them. They don't deserve the chance to play with you...

Hugs. (From April april_diamond, too. And always from Mom and Dad. LOL.) Hang in there.

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That's it for now. More soon, hopefully!

Hey, like do you know that song? It's from "My Fair Lady."

"I'm gettin' married in the mornin'
Ding dong the bells are gonna chime..."

(And so on...)

Well, I'm actually getting married in December. (Go fig, huh? LOL.)

We got engaged in July and it's been a madhouse ever since. ROFL. Yikes!

I had no clue what's involved. Seriously.

Anyway, the good part is that I'm in love and she's in love and we're gonna get married and be together and all that jazz. So, that's very, very cool.

Oh! Yeah, it April april_diamond, who I originally 'met' online, believe it or not. (Playing at a list at Yahoo!, actually, but that's another long and boring story.)

We're waaaaay compatible and happy and stuff. We love doing the same things in RL and online. (For the most part.) It's coooool.

We've already had a lot of practice with the parenting thingy, cuz of having Prissy so much, so we're ready for that when it come along. LOL. No rush, but it's okay if it happens in the next couple years...

``Czar Nikky (Nik)

Have I like said that I love online lately? Cuz I waaaay do! I really, really do!

I'm just in this totally whacky, grinn-y mood today. Partly cuz it's my turn to play 'bad cop' (you know: good cop, bad cop) over at our PSP communities... LMAO!

Well, maybe not really bad cop. Just not-so-good cop, I guess!

Every so often one of us gets fed up with the attitudes of a handful of people at the two communities. (Heck, if you count both LJ and GJ, then it's actually four communities--but who's counting? Right?)

Then one of us tries to step in and take care of stuff so that person can take a mini-vaca. No biggie, or anything! Just a way to keep all of us from 'burning out' on moderation.

Hey, in fact, I wish all my moderation junk was set up as cool as it is at psp7_beginners and psp8_fun, frankly! (And at psp7_beginners and psp8_fun over at GJ, too. Isn't this cool how I can link the GJ communities now? Rockin'!)

I guess the credit over all has to go to Kev kevinr. But he always says it's the team--that we've got such a good one! He's right, of course. LOL. (No false modesty here! LOL.)

Actually, I'm waaaay proud to be a mod at those communities. It's kind of an honor, seeing as they're such great communities--and so successful!

Kev still runs 'em exactly the way he wants--which is waaaay cool by me! I mean, when you create something and have a total concept in mind and then get just the right team to help you moderate, why shouldn't you do whatev it is you want? It's your show! ROFL.

I've felt bad at various Yahoo groups and blog communities over the years, but I now get it--it's not personal! And it isn't a democracy, either. The person who starts those things up OWNS 'em. And they've got a right to run 'em any way they want!

Which is now how I view my own communities/groups! LOL. It really is like being the 'czar' of our own little world...

Obviously we can't be successful without a good membership, too, though! So you kinda have to learn to be a good 'ruler.' For whatever reason it makes me think of playing Sid Meyer's 'Civilization'--LOL!

Gotta jet back to work! Hugs and all that jazz to all my friends...

``Czar Nikky

He's baaaack! LOL.

nk_seashore

Okay, I did that by doing this...

( Here's How! )

Is it just toooo way cool that green is probably my fave color? (Not necessarily that shade green, but still!)

One of these days I'm gonna actually post something here. Or even do some moderation! Wow. What a concept. LOL.

Anyway, shout out to all my friends!

``Czar Nikky

Work is crazy. Crazy! What gives?

I still long for a teaching job. But I'm happy to be working! So many people aren't, after all.

I have no time to write anymore. That sucks. But life is basically good, so I'm not complaining. (Much, anyway. LOL.)

Home is crazy. The sibs are all wild things. Are to control. LOL. But Prissy prissy_m is my darling! She's soooo awesome.

Okay, so if you're my friend here at LJ and you haven't friended April april_diamond (my girl), I'll just ask you 'why haven't you?' (ROFL. Yeah, like you probably don't even realize she has an LJ, right? No excuses!)

Seriously, April used to keep a private LJ (she's opened many of her past entries, though, now)--so she's never made that many LJ friends. She's loads of fun (I think, anyway), so you might at least consider it...

She did some waaaaay cool artsy junk (blends) that she shared today in her journal. You can find 'em HERE if you're interested. In fact, she shared some cooool artsy junk in YESTERDAY'S entry, too.

(She's so waaaay artistic. Very cool! I love her icons, too. LOL. Yeah, yeah, I'm soooo biased! But her stuff is cool, even so!)

I haven't done a blend in forever. Yikes!

So I haven't written fic (or written, period--except for work), or done anything artistic. Yikes. Sigh. Man, I need to find some free time!

I need to go back to work is what I need to do! Break time is soooo over!

Hi, guys! Love you! Big, big hugs.

``Czar Nikky

She's one of the major loves of my life...

If you'd like, you can visit her (brand new) LiveJournal (prissy_m) and give her a hug or two! (Or click on her bday banner to send her bday wishes! LMAO. Soooo way cute.)

Okay, so back to the FUN! LOL.

``Czar Nikky

Happy Birthday to Deb debrajoy.

(Okay, I've no clue if she comes online these days or ever reads LJ if she does, but what the heck! LOL.)

'May the wind be always at her back and may she be in Heaven an hour before the devil knows she's dead.'

(Old Irish blessing.)

``Czar Nikky

Happy Bday, Baby!

I love you!

Sweets for my sweet.

Gotta jet, big time! Hi, all!

``Czar Nikky

Yeah, I did one. (Quit nagging, Charlie charliemc! Yikes! LOL.)

So how about some of the rest of you doing some? You don't have to be crazy for Brit--just willing to try! What the heck, right?

Here's mine.

I do love trying out new things! LOL. Fun, fun, fun.

Gotta jet for now. More (hopefully) later (maybe much).

Cyber hugs to everybody! (Yeah, you get a big hug, Charlie. LOL. And love to April april_diamond and Carrie czarina_carrie if you girls are reading...)

``Czar Nikky

Hey, guys! Please consider adding the code to your own LJs. And do sign this...

I think it's a great concept, personally...

``Czar Nikky

I just typed a huge post here directly into the website 'update' area. And LiveJournal ate it.

I was totally 'what' about it while it went whack on me.

Brother.

I don't have time to recreate that entry, so...

Gotta jet!

I do 'miss' you guys, though!

Hugs,

``Czar Nikky

Okay, so my bday...

It was pretty awesome! We were still 'celebrating' yesterday, by the way! LOL.

I've never mentioned before that I've got a new (another?) girlfriend. Her name is April and she totally, totally rocks! (Hi, baby, if you're reading this. LOL.)

I kinda waited 'til I'd had a long talk with Carrie czarina_carrie to tell her about April before I brought up April here.

So, yeah, Carrie is cool with April and April is cool with Carrie. At the current time I don't have to make a choice of which one I want in my 'forever future' (so to speak), so it's all good. LOL.

I hope it doesn't sound like I'm taking advantage of either of them, cuz I'd never, ever do that! (I've had some waaaay long talks with my Mom, my Dad and my minister at church about all this, too.) I'm just not at a place where I wanna plan my future and set things in stone--and neither are April or Carrie! So we're all free to date/see other people.

Which doesn't mean that I'm not crazy about April and crazy about Carrie! Cuz I am. I feel like I'm very fortunate to have a special relationship with each of these two very awesome women.

Anyway! LOL.

April got me such amazing gifts for my bday! My new Casio G-Shock watch that does the atomic clock thingy! It keeps 100% accurate time, in other words! Rocks, rocks, rocks.

Plus she got me a new jacket (brown ultrasuede) and some new warm-up pants (gray with a red stripe down the side--super comfy) and some shirts. (She loves to buy me clothes! LOL.)

It's hard to say where April is from, cuz she and her family have homes all over the place and travel a ton. But when I first met her (via online again!), she was in New York City. The waaaay cool thing is that it turns out she (well, her family) has a home in Georgetown--which is practically in my backyard (so to speak)! So when she's here (like now), I can see her all the time! Like after work and for lunch and on weekends and whenev. Awesome.

We have so much fun together. Yesterday she wanted to take me out to a restaurant for lunch/dinner (a meal, anyway). But I talked her into getting fast food and eating it in the car! LOL. (She's hardly ever really eaten fast food, believe it or not, so it's like this big adventure for her! ROFL. Cooool!)

Her bday comes up in a couple months, so we'll have to do something really cool. I'm trying to figure something out even now--to be prepared! (Why is it I know so many girls who have a bday in April, by the way? Mistress Marilyn, Deb and now April! LOL. Interesting!)

Carrie sent me "The DaVinci Code" (which I've been dying to read!), a gift certificate for a local bookstore (that I can also use online if I want) and this awesome fossil thingy of a dragonfly. Oh! And this cool big shell that's just all 'mother of pearl'-y inside! I'm using it to hold my rings and chains and junk on my dresser!

(By the way, I love petrified wood and fossils. Have I ever said that? And way cool agates and junk. I guess a lot of people do, though. LOL. Plus I have some awesome glass floats and cool shells, too. Beach boy me!)

April helped Mom 'organize' my bday party. They had it Friday night, so I was more like stunned than just surprised! LOL. (Neat trick not having it on my actual bday, which was Thursday!)

After the party we ended up spending the night at April's place in Georgetown. So nice.

Yeah, so I've just given myself away for why I've been 'less active' online lately, I guess! LMAO. April and I have been hanging out since December. And I don't think I've even told Kev or Joey about her before now... (See? Guys don't always blab all they know to each other!)

April and I kinda kept things pretty 'low key' at first. We went out with other people along and all that junk. But it's gotten... well... it's heated up (I guess) since the first of the year. More every day! She's just an angel and I love her.

And like I said, she's waaaay fun.

So Joey fatjoey talked me into moderating a new Writers Workshop list connected to his Law & Order/L&O: SVU list over at Yahoo!

I'm not a canon-dude about L&O or SVU, so hopefully we'll have others who can cover that! LOL. But I'm finally getting a chance to set up a workshop list the way it should be set up (in my humble opinion, anyway).

Funny, Kev, Joey and I were IMing yesterday and talking about how we now appreciate certain elements of the old Dreams list that we didn't necessarily recognize at the time. You do need to be friendly and do a bunch of OT junk. Not because the list needs to be a circle of pals, really--but more because if you're comfortable with one another it makes doing the feedbacking easier for everyone! (I'd tell Deb that, though, if we were still in touch... That she was--in a way, anyway--right about that!)

I imagine there will be junk there that could benefit even non-L&O/SVU writers, though! We've got some good concepts in place and are using a second list--just for the Mods--to iron out the details... Hopefully we'll be rolling with it soon!

(Can you believe I got talked into modding another list??? I must be nuts. LOL. And I just got all wrapped up in modding Kev's new psp8_fun community--on top of the old psp7_beginners one. Good thing we've got several mods at both of those, too!)

Okay, gotta jet! April's here and wants to go!

Hugs,

``Czar Nikky